What Now???

Well, this should be the first post and thank god no one can read this. Without me asking them to that is. I think... I am not quite sure why I had the urge to do this, but I am hoping on some small scale it will heal a piece of my soul. Over the past few months I came to the conclusion that my life can fit in a nice little box like those of so many others. Single, Divorced, White, Female, 36, Single parent, living pay check to pay check, inside the beltway. There has to be more than what can fit in a box in a newspaper ad with a word limit. I know there is, but to what degree. Still have the hopes and dreams of my youth. They are just more tainted, realistic and grander at times. Have my life has been lived and the question becomes what am I going to do with the rest of it? Only I can figure that one out. I look back on my life almost in disbelief. On the one hand I am so grateful and happy and on the other amazed at the fact that one person has had so much hurt and pain that I caused my self as well as a lot by others. Either way I am grateful for both. Just funny how some of it would make a very funny yet sad book depending upon how your outlook on life is. Today and just today I am okay.